Ephiphanal moment:
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From: Katelyn
Date: Jul 26, 2005 11:34 PM
Well, the way I figure, to hell with all this crap about me thinking I won't get it. And if a miracle occurs and somebody riggs the test, I might as well fall flat on my face.
See, I was laying on my bed earlier, thinking about...well, everything. And I decided that life's a balance, and as long as you don't screw with it too badly you'll usually get corresponding good things and bad things. So, the harder I fall the more I'll enjoy the sweet nectar of life. Screw the numbness. I want to live, and I damn well will. No more changing my soul to what I think will please people and whatnot. I need to start re-getting to know who I am. I think I was seriously close to forgetting.
I also decided to know God for who he really is, not what we picture him to be. Yeah, I've heard that so many times. But it finally clicked. That one'll be harder, and a hell of a lot more scary.
*grins*
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| Body: | -hugs- I love you! Isn't that the truth? I'll say it again "opposition in all things". It goes with what you say- you must know disappointment to feel happiness. And the greater the disappointment, the greater that the happiness is going to feel. Or, in my case, the longer I was away from God- the better (I should say stronger) it felt to come to Him. It's all good. Life is good. For now. Then it goes bad, but when you come back, it feels all that much better. Even in my atheism (which was nothing but pain), I knew I would rather live like that then "numbness". That's why I would never kill myself, no matter how hopeless life seemed to me. Because feeling- being alive- it's all too great in of itself. |
